The Post That I Was Really Scared to Write

Hello, everyone. I know it’s been ages since you’ve last heard from me, and I’m really sorry for that. It may be a little too cliche to say this, but life has, indeed, managed to pull me out of the clouds and dragged me into the real world.

Anyway, I don’t want to keep this any longer, so I’m just going to say it. I’m here to tell you guys that I’m officially retiring as a TaeNy writer. It’s been months, probably years, since I last wrote anything of substance, and whenever I try again, nothing just comes out. The passion and motivation I once had for writing is, sadly, not there anymore.

I would really like to apologize for all the stories that I’m leaving unfinished. I know I could have just left quietly and save myself from whatever anger or hate people are going to throw at me, but I wanted to say goodbye to you all.

To my readers, thank you all for sticking with me in spite of my terrible update schedule. Thank you for all the comments you’ve given me, and for actually taking the time to read anything that I’ve written. I hope I’ve managed to somehow entertain you guys, no matter how simple my stories were.

To my author friends, I am very honored to have written alongside all of you. You all have been my inspiration, and your stories had been the light to my darker days. Please continue doing what I couldn’t anymore.

Just… Thank you, to everyone, for everything. I have so much more I wanted to say, but sadly, words aren’t my friends anymore.

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Now, on a lighter, more casual note… I’ve been an actual little shit during those years that I was actually active in writing, and I have with me tons of unfinished stories–actual multi chaptered stories I somehow like starting and hate finishing. And, if you think it’s not too much of a torture, do you guys still want to read them? Yes, they are unfinished, but if you still want them, I can fill in the remaining unwritten parts with informal story telling, just writing the crucial parts that were supposed to happen next, until the story ends.

It’s cool if you don’t want them anymore though, I just thought it would be nice to have something like a parting gift, no matter how incomplete, lol.

Do tell me what you think in the comments, or at Twitter, or wherever. :)

P.S. This is not an April Fools joke. I was supposed to post this yesterday until I remembered what day it was.

P.P.S. This site won’t be deleted, as are the stories in it.

28 comments

  1. Hi Stephen, no worries, my friend. Life, as they say, goes on and interests change. Yes, please finish up the loose ends of your unfinished Taeny tales when your muse gives you inspiration, but no hurry or pressure there. Enjoy the process. Until the next update then, cheers!
    Kenneth

    1. Thanks, Kenneth! You’ve been one of my most faithful commentors, and I really appreciate everything you’ve told me. :)

  2. Hey Stephan.

    I rarely comment on any stories because I am kinda shy and it’s kinda scary to actually talk to any of the authors. But today I have to write this little note here.

    Thank you for all the time and effort you put into writing your great stories. They sure did entertain me during crappy times or Taeny craving periods. And especially thank you for starting the whole blop thingy last year. Even though you gave up half way on your own journey, you managed to inspire other authors in joining the movement. Authors got to write and share their awesome works, readers got cool stories to read, a lot of people were happy thanks to something you started.

    Now I would like to have the last request and to answer your question. Could you please post the unfinished stories no matter how unfinished they are? It would be a waste to let them rot in a corner.

    Once again, thank you for everything you have done for us and good luck with whatever it is you’re doing. Enjoy life, hopefully I will still see you around.

    P.S. Your tweets are also an entertaining source for me. For some reasons, I find anything you write cracks me up, be it fanfiction or your random tweets.

    1. Hello! Thank you for your kind words. I would have liked to know who you are but I repect your choice to be anonymous.

      I do feel bad for leaving my freeforms halfway, I admit I didn’t anticipate how hard it was to write everyday. I did enjoy it though, and seeing other authors trying it, even people who never wrote anything before, made me really happy.

      When I said I had a lot of unfinished stories written, I really did mean a lot. At the top of my head, I have 4 really long ones that I would need to sort out first so I can informally write the next few scenes until the end.

      I do agree that it will be such a waste to just leave them there on the shelf, that’s why I left the decision to you guys if you want to see them.

      Thank you again, for being with me all this time, for reading my works. I won’t be disappearing though, if you’re worried about that. I’d still be at twitter tweeting random stuff. Drop me a tweet once in a while. :)

  3. Hey!
    I’m also not the same Taeny reader as before, now I read other pairings fanfics :D But You were one of my favorite authors at the time and you managed to make my heart flutter on more than a couple of occasions. So I’m grateful for all your stories, even the unfinished ones and I’ll be happy to read whatever else you decide to post. All the best to you, girl!

    1. Thank you! I will now try to be a more functioning member of society, while I try to sort out the stories I have yet to post. :)

  4. Hi Stephan. I’m a new crew on the ship and I belatedly (I wish I had joined the fandom earlier T.T) found your precious gems.

    I love all (I’m not lying) of your fics! You did so great and truthfully I laughed a lot in RT but cried too in BFG and MIX OMG LAW STUDENT HWANG (she’s my ult so yeah)!!! Thanks for all of them <3

    Lastly, YESSSSS I want to read the unfinished stories so take all the time you need I'll still be here ;)

    1. Hi! Thank you, really. I appreciate your kind words. :) When the time comes, I hope you enjoy the rest of the stuff that I’m still going to post.

  5. OMG!!! what a devastating piece of news!!!! :(((((((((((((

    the one story that i would have liked to see finished, is Mixed… :((((((

    actually…. could u please give a brief summary story telling about crucial points that were supposed to happen until the end of the story? because i would really like to have some sort of closure for that one… i really hope u can do that for Mix… :(((

    that said… even though it’s sad for taeny readers… i wanna wish u all the best and, thank u for providing very good stories, one shots, free forms and some random short ones, over the past years… thank u. and… sigh i don’t know what else to say… hahahah. just, thank u.

    ps: please kindly consider completing the story telling for Mix! if u don’t wanna post it in the open, u can also DM me on twitter or something.. hahahah i am @thebluebearies
    thank u.

    1. Hi! Yes, I do owe it to you guys to at least form some type of informal chapters(?) just so I can tie up any loose ends. It won’t have the same “quality” as my usual chapters though, but at least it would be able to answer your questions. :)

      Anyway, I’d like to thank you for reading my stuff and for sticking with me until now. :)

      1. AND! im really glad that you’re not gonna delete your site your stories. because i sometimes come back to re-read some stores.. hahahaha!!!

        and YES! some sort of informal chapters (?) would be great!!!! to answer my questions and i’ll have closure for Mix. :)) thank u!

  6. I appreciate your telling us that we’re not likely to get updates on your stories anymore. Your passion for writing may be gone or your passion for TaeNy has waxed and waned. Whatever it is, I understand. I just want you to know that I’m thankful for so much joy your stories have given me in the past. I will always treasure those stories – finished or not. I am also thankful that you are not deleting what you have already posted. Yes, I would like to know what would have happened in these stories as you planned them in your mind. I wish though that some awesome writer would take it upon himself/herself to complete your stories (with your permission of course) but I may be out of line in suggesting this. I know it would be like giving birth to a child and giving it up for someone else to rear. Lol. Please forgive me for my impertinence. And again, thank you.

    1. Hi Tipco. I’m really sorry for leaving you all hanging like this. Although I’ve planned to at least set up narratives for the ending of my stories, it still somehow feels like a betrayal.

      Funny you’ve mentioned that, though. I was actually thinking about that too. If someone is interested enough to continue them, and yes with my permission, I’ll gladly lend them my “child” LOL. It can be like a collab of some sort. :)

      You’ve been one of my faithful readers, and I really hope that whatever I post from here on would still interest you. Unfinished or not. :)

      1. Of course I would want to read whatever you post in the future. Just a heads up though, as in the past, I only read TaeNy or stories with TaeNy. Hehe. I will continue to cheer for you Stephan. More power to you and good luck on your endeavors, friend.

      2. That’s great, cause I meant my /other/ unfinished TaeNy stories, lol. There is literally a lot of them, I’m sorting them out right now as we speak. I won’t post everything though, just the long ones. :) Again, thank you for everything Tipco. :)

  7. hallo author-nim,

    thank you for all the time you spent for your stories. thank you for accompany me during my free times everytime I read your beautiful and passionate writing.
    However, as much I wanna read your future thoughts, hopes, and imagination but I believe you have your own reasons for decided this.
    Nevertheless, whatever it is I trust it will be a great ones and just remember that you are more than you think!

    cheers,

    daash

  8. End of an era right here~

    Wow, I remember when I fell into the vortex called Soshi fic and you were one of the first writers I followed. My, how the years have passed. ^^ No matter your choices for future writing, I’m on board with you doing what makes you feel happy and fulfilled. Whenever you get the itch to tie up lose ends (as chapters, informally in a outline, whatevs), I’d be open to read! I love knowing what other authors have in mind. :))

    Thanks for the letter spelling out your feelings. It’s much appreciated. <33

    1. It does feel like an end, doesn’t it? I can barely remember when I started writing, but I do remember how it felt like. It gave me the greatest feeling, experiencing first hand how powerful words can be. I’d never really wanted to quit, but my life is currently at a point where I should focus on other things. But! I won’t let myself go without a bang. I still a have a few stories to post. I just hope I can find the time to at least finish them, even with informal chapters or just outlines. :)

      Anyway, I’d like to thank you for reading my stuff, and also for writing! I really enjoyed your stories and I’m not sure if you’re still active, but I hope you don’t stop writing. :)

  9. hey sorry for being a silent reader but I loved all your stories! doesn’t matter if they’re unfinished I know how hard it is to continue a story is :)
    love reading and re-reading some of your works !

    1. Hello! Well I appreciate you breaking the “silent” status now. :) Thank you for reading my stories. :)

  10. THE POST THAT I WAS REALLY SCARED TO READ

    Why I feel like break up? You are one of my favorite Taeny writer. Anyway, thanks for all your time and effort sharing all this to us. Like others, I’m grateful for all your stories and u are not delete this site. YES, I’m glad that you decided to post whether unfinished or incomplete stories from you. Wish you all the best. I don’t want say goodbye, but see you again at Twitter?

    1. Hello! Yes, I’d still be at twitter. :) Thank you for sticking with me all this time, I really appreciate it. :)

  11. I’ve read everything in your site. I know I only, like, stumbled into this last year but you’ve been really a great part of my days. I always come back to read where I left off. sometimes on or offline. Thank you for sharing this part of yourself to us. I’ll never forget this site and all the stories you’ve written here and in bysone and in 3981.

    I also followed you on twitter. I enjoy your tweets, too :) Bless you!

  12. I had been ur silent reader for sooo long, I don’t know if u would remember me but I bet not. I’m a bad reader haha I mean in all of ur works I think I commented twice, thrice I can’t remember not that many that’s for sure lol.

    It’s a shocking sad news but I understand, where not getting any younger and life is… well.

    I just want to say thanks for all those art pieces u have written and shared with us. I remember vividly BFG is one of those fics that got me suck in this Taeny fanfic world so that particular fic of yours if precious to me haha.

    And thanks too for having ur last words, I mean it’s easy to just disappear but you, u gave us d closure not let us hang if this particular fic would be updated someday. everybody knows waiting sucks specially if it’s uncertain haha. ur decision of not taking down or deletung d site that too. we had a place to go re-read and revisit.

    About that ending summary I would definitely like it, that would be great but no rush post it in ur own leisure time, I said waiting suck but if it’s worth it then it’s worth it.

    This journey of yours had come to it’s destination and if u decided to finally let go then suportahanta ka hahaha lol.

    Good job man u did great.

    1. Thank you for your kind words. :) Taeny had been a very huge part of my life as well and I can’t just go and delete that. :)) Anyway, maraming salamat!

  13. Hello, I’m a new SONE (and a locksmith). And I’m still glad I found your works here. Thank you for not deleting your files. ♡

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